So much of what life brings is beyond my skills, beyond my experience, beyond
my comfort zone. In many ways I could tell the story of my life through the
times I have been forced into action, forced to confront my fears, forced to do
things that make my natural disposition scream out in fear. Left on my own and
living by my own preferences, my life would look very different than it does
today. This is true in my character, my home, my church, and pretty well
everywhere else.
One of my great comforts and challenges has been a funny, often-overlooked
little passage from the book of Exodus. God has told Moses that he will lead the
people out of Egypt. God has told Moses that he, Moses, is to serve as God’s
voice to both Israel and Egypt. And Moses is none too pleased.
Moses takes it
upon himself to remind God why he obviously isn’t the man for the job. “But
Moses said to the LORD, ‘Oh, my Lord, I am not eloquent,
either in the past or since you have spoken to your servant, but I am slow of
speech and of tongue’.” You’ve got the wrong guy, can’t you see that?
But God has not made a mistake. God hasn’t chosen Moses because of his
abilities, but for reasons that are all his own. Far more likely, God has chosen
Moses precisely because he has no natural abilities. God looks for people who
are so weak that they will have to depend fully upon him. “Then the LORD said to him, ‘Who has made man’s mouth? Who makes him
mute, or deaf, or seeing, or blind? Is it not I, the LORD? Now therefore go, and I will be with your mouth and
teach you what you shall speak’ ” (Exodus 4:10-12).
God’s answer is simple: That mouth you’re worried about—just think for one
moment about who made it. It’s not your mouth, it’s my mouth.
It may be on your face, but I made it and it belongs to me. If I made it, I can
use it. Just trust me with it, and you’ll be amazed at what I can do. Moses had
it all wrong. Moses wanted to serve God
out of his strength, but God wanted Moses to serve out of
his weakness.
At so many times and in so many ways—from the dinner table to the elders’
meeting to the conference podium—I have wanted to run away from opportunities
and responsibilities. Many times I have, in one way or another. I have wanted to
remind God that he’s got the wrong guy—I’m not able to lead this family, I’m not
able to make decisions on behalf of this church, I’m not able to speak truth
into this situation, I’m not able to stand up there and speak. I am quite
certain that you have found yourself battling similar fears.
But think of Moses, and think of God’s patient response, and believe that the
God who calls is the God who equips. Right there you will find your comfort and
your confidence.
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